Not So Stressed Anymore!

Ok, the drama with the pups is finally finished! We are keeping both dogs, which is great because I was seriously an emotional wreck about giving one up! I'm finally back to being excited about the baby again, though I can't wait for him/her to get here. I'm still sort of bored with the pregnancy, especially because I'm starting to get more and more "how are you feeeeeeling?" questions. I'm feeling pregnant. Do you really want the details? No, they want me to say I feel perfect and never better. Well, that's kind of false. I don't feel horrible, exactly, but I'm super achy and can't sleep, along with a few other fun pregnancy symptoms. UGH! Anyways, we finally went through our baby stuff. I still have things I need, but we'll get there. I feel less anxious since we put stuff away. And our nursery is done! Woot! Tonight is our last birthing class, which is insane. Four weeks gone just like that! Also, today is officially the 8-week mark for me, assuming I make it all the way to 40 weeks!

It's hot out!

I don't know what the crazy weatherwoman was talking about when she said today was going to be "beauuuutiful!" It's so hot! And not just because I'm the size of a house! It's really frickin hot out! The thermometer is reading 87 and it's a touch humid. Maybe by beautiful she meant it wasn't going to rain? I want a job where I can be paid to be kinda accurate. Really. As an accountant, I don't think that would fly! LOL! Can you imagine? Well, expenses were $50,000 this quarter, but my accuracy percentage is only about 50%! I'd last a long time...

My doctor, who I hate, canceled my bi-weekly appointment today. UGH! She just rescheduled for tomorrow, but still. I already hate her. Way to inconvenience my life. It's not like I don't work and can mosey on in whenever I feel like it. These things need to be planned in advance! She did this once before, but a few days in advance so I had enough notice to clear things up with my boss. Not only do I not have any time to do that, my boss is out of town. Awesome. I can't wait until this baby gets here just so I don't have to see her anymore!

10 weeks and counting!

Wow, I only have 10 weeks left! I can't believe it! More than being anxious about the baby coming, I'm anxious about money! I really hope my husband and I can do this! My mind hasn't really been on the baby much lately because I'm just kind of over pregnancy, which sounds awful, but apparently is common. It's not that I'm not excited, I'm just ready for this little Monkey to be here! But we got a new dog last week, Jada. I want to adopt all the homeless animals in the world right now, thanks hormones, so we ended up with another dog. Another reason we got her is because we didn't want our other pup, Bella, to feel too bad or left out when the baby comes. Bella is spoiled rotten and I didn't want there to be any issues with Baby Monkey. We had a few tiffs the first week, but other than that, things have been smooth sailing! The hormones made me really sad at first for Bella, like we were taking something away from her, and I cried a few times for her, but now they love each other! While I was feeling bad for Bella, I had an epiphany about parenthood! I figure if I feel that way about my first baby, Bella, then I'm sure to feel that way about my first real baby when the time comes for a second baby! I know, that's further on down the road, but still. I think I'll be partially sad when that times comes, for my firstborn! I'm probably thinking waaaay too much about this stuff.

In other news, I think I'm finally starting to get the nesting thing going on, not that I'm doing much about it! Hubby and I cleaned out the study this past weekend and are planning on doing baby stuff this weekend. We have all the nursery furniture now, so we just need to start putting things away. Planning on doing this makes me feel like I can take on the whole house! LOL! Probably not...

I'm also making progress on the saving money thing. I'm trying to use coupons and shop the sales at my grocery store to keep my grocery bill down. I think I did well this week, bought $115 worth of groceries for $53! I'd like to get it a little lower, but I think that will come with time, practice, and a stocked pantry! Ugh, speaking of pantries, that's next on the to-do list!

Weddings vs. Babies

Ok, so here is my first real mommyhood "dilemma." I'm at the age right now, 27, where most of my friends are getting married. In the past, I've always been drunkenly dancing at weddings, but this year, not so much. So I'm wondering, is it going to be any fun? Am I friends with these people because we've always shared that drunken bond? How will I really interact with them? They've been my friends for longer than we've been drinking (legally or not), but I feel like our relationship in the past few years has morphed into just partying. We all went away to different colleges and I moved away after school, so I really only get to see them on special occasions (read: drunken messes). I'm just worried about how I will be perceived by them, and how I will perceive them, when I'm not there taking shots right along with them. I already feel like some of these friendships are dying, and being pregnant feels like my last true bond with them is ending.

Don't get me wrong, I'm crazy excited about becoming a mom. I'm just worried that I'm losing who I've always been, even if that person isn't the best person in the world.

Welcome!

This blog is my attempt to chronicle my journey into mommy-hood. I know there are a million mommy blogs out there, but I just wanted a place to journal my attempt to morph into something I am currently not: mommy. I'm pregnant with my first child, due in August, and I've always just assumed that I would become mommy when my little one arrived. I'm seriously starting to doubt that now...

I'm not a "good" wife. I'm not a good housekeeper. But when I think of myself as "mommy," I think of myself as both of those things. How do I get myself from here to there? I don't do laundry. Ever. My darling hubby does each and every load of laundry in our house. I don't do dishes either. In fact, I generally hate chores. Isn't it crazy that I still think of them as chores, even when I own my home? But I know that "mommy" is supposed to do those things, especially since we are planning on me being a stay-at-home-mom. I swear I'll change, but how? One good thing I have going for me is that I love to cook!

I'm also going to try to chat a little about my attempt to rein in our budget. We are both (semi)-responsible adults. We are both accountants, so we are obviously schooled in the financial sense. We took on a lot of debt when we sold our last home and bought our new one, but it was worth it to us. We are happily living with that decision, but if I'm going to stay at home, we need to make some adjustments.

I'm hoping to use this blog to just get my thoughts written down. It might help in my magical transformation to see where I've started and how far I've come (someday).