Monday, May 24, 2010

Weddings vs. Babies

Ok, so here is my first real mommyhood "dilemma." I'm at the age right now, 27, where most of my friends are getting married. In the past, I've always been drunkenly dancing at weddings, but this year, not so much. So I'm wondering, is it going to be any fun? Am I friends with these people because we've always shared that drunken bond? How will I really interact with them? They've been my friends for longer than we've been drinking (legally or not), but I feel like our relationship in the past few years has morphed into just partying. We all went away to different colleges and I moved away after school, so I really only get to see them on special occasions (read: drunken messes). I'm just worried about how I will be perceived by them, and how I will perceive them, when I'm not there taking shots right along with them. I already feel like some of these friendships are dying, and being pregnant feels like my last true bond with them is ending.

Don't get me wrong, I'm crazy excited about becoming a mom. I'm just worried that I'm losing who I've always been, even if that person isn't the best person in the world.

Thursday, May 20, 2010


This blog is my attempt to chronicle my journey into mommy-hood. I know there are a million mommy blogs out there, but I just wanted a place to journal my attempt to morph into something I am currently not: mommy. I'm pregnant with my first child, due in August, and I've always just assumed that I would become mommy when my little one arrived. I'm seriously starting to doubt that now...

I'm not a "good" wife. I'm not a good housekeeper. But when I think of myself as "mommy," I think of myself as both of those things. How do I get myself from here to there? I don't do laundry. Ever. My darling hubby does each and every load of laundry in our house. I don't do dishes either. In fact, I generally hate chores. Isn't it crazy that I still think of them as chores, even when I own my home? But I know that "mommy" is supposed to do those things, especially since we are planning on me being a stay-at-home-mom. I swear I'll change, but how? One good thing I have going for me is that I love to cook!

I'm also going to try to chat a little about my attempt to rein in our budget. We are both (semi)-responsible adults. We are both accountants, so we are obviously schooled in the financial sense. We took on a lot of debt when we sold our last home and bought our new one, but it was worth it to us. We are happily living with that decision, but if I'm going to stay at home, we need to make some adjustments.

I'm hoping to use this blog to just get my thoughts written down. It might help in my magical transformation to see where I've started and how far I've come (someday).